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I’m in a bit of an ADHD slump right now…

My brain is kind of taking a vacation right now, I just wish I could, too...

Happy Monday! How are you doing? Did anybody notice that I’ve been kind of inactive here, lately? I wouldn’t know, because my brain and I recently have some trouble agreeing on what stuff to get done. Like installing Analytics. Or posting.

As you can probably tell, I’m in a bit of an ADHD slump* at the moment. It’s super annoying, because it means I’m having a seriously hard time getting myself to be productive. And being productive makes up a big part of my self esteem. So I’m currently trying to navigate around the drop in self esteem and rise in depression not being productive usually means for me.

I’m not sure why I’m having these problems at the moment. Personally, I’ve always percieved ADHD symptoms as rising and falling, like waves. So right now might just be a regular high in symptoms. But also, I think it’s probably about the fact that May has a ton of public holidays over here (I know, first world problem), and that means my usual routine is pretty much impossible to keep up. Which throws me off, big time.

Anyway, since I can’t really get myself to focus on my planned posts lately, and I’m trying to also handle chores and work, I’m going to try and post more about what’s going on in my life, during this ADHD slump.

For example, I managed to do some reading this past weekend, and just finished Angie Thomas’ The Hate U Give yesterday morning. Highly recommend. It describes the aftermath of a police shooting in the US, from the point of view of the teenage black eyewitness, who is incredibly well written, by the way. It’s fascinating, heart breaking, infuriating, inspiring, just over all incredible. And it will suck you in, so it’s actually kind of a quick read, despite not being a thin volume.

What else? I’ve been letting my bullet journaling slide lately, which gets on my nerves a lot. I think I’ll try to go back to setting up most pages for the month at a time, and hope that helps me get back into my routines. I hate that my brain is making this so hard on me, especially as my bujo has been a constant companion and my number one coping strategy for executive dysfunction, since I started doing it almost two years ago. I’m going to have to work really hard to make sure I don’t drop the ball there, because it has honestly changed my life for the better, and I don’t want to loose that, just because my brain might be getting bored with it.

Also important: It’s been getting quite hot around here, and I’ve realized I’m having a hard time drinking enough water when I’m not at work. There, I just have my water bottle around at all times and drink from it regularly. At home, for some reason, I can’t seem to do the same. I don’t like having to unscrew my bottle all the time, but if I just go with a glass that I need to refill, I don’t really do that as often. Not sure how I’m going to get around that, but I definitely need to find a way. If anybody has any ideas on this topic, please let me know.

So, what am I doing, while I’m not being productive? Honestly, a whole lot of scrolling on tumblr, Instagram and Pinterest. You know, because my brain loves the constant stimulation, without any thinking. I’ve also been watching some movies over the weekend. Finally saw Pixar’s Coco. It’s beautiful and will give you all the feels. And I can’t stress enough just how visually stunning that movie is. Definitely watch it if you haven’t already.

I’ve also been trying take some me time to focus on myself, and I used the extra time off last week to spend some quality time with the boyfriend. That was actually really nice. If only my brain wasn’t trying to ruin it by pointing out that I didn’t do anything productive at the same time. Very annoying. But anyway, as I said, I’ve been reading for a bit, and looking at social media. But the boyfriend and I also went clothes shopping last Monday, so I now have two new pairs of jeans, that I desperately needed (I haven’t had a nice pair of skinny jeans in years…. and they look goooood!), and I finally found a really nice blazer, that I’ll wear with my dress for my besties wedding this fall. So excited!

And, I guess I can tell you a secret, since I don’t think the boyfriend reads this blog all the time: I finally thought of an aniversary gift for him! We’ll have our five year aniversary this week (yay!), and I’ve booked us a night at a cute hotel, that’s a really short drive from our house, but is next to a cute little lake and might be a possibility for a wedding venue. I’m really excited about it! We can both use a night at a hotel, since neither of us has been sleeping very well lately (another reason for my lacking productivity, now that I think of it), we’ll get a full breakfast, and the hotel looks really cute. Also, if the weather holds up, it will be nice getting to take a walk around the lake, and through the forest.

I think that’s about all that’s going on in my life right now. I promise, at some point, I’ll go back to writing more helpful content, but for now, I’ll just need to navigate this ADHD low somehow. And, oh well, I’m probably not the only one dealing with this stuff right now, so maybe I can help people feel better about their own ADHD slumps.

And I’d love to hear from you! Does anybody have a good way to handle these slimps? Or at least not feel so guilty about not handling them? Please let me know!

*ADHD slump meaning an increase in ADHD symptoms and more difficulties in using my coping strategies to get around them.

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